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I have been ill and shaking this illness since Thursday, April 3. It was so bad that I did something I have never done before, not including when I gave birth, and cancelled class due to illness. This has been the strangest thing. I felt as though I had a cold coming on, and I did, but then I woke up one morning and blam, I was completely stuffed up and tired. I went to the gym, but didn't do everything I normally do. I came home and within 2 hours I knew that when Cullen woke up from his nap there was no way I would be able to take care of him, my headache, fever, body aches, nausea and sinuses were that bad. Thank goodness, my mom came over to be with us until Barry got home.
By supper time, I had begun getting physically ill and my hips and back ached so badly that I could not do anything but rock back and forth to ease the pain. My arthritic tendencies have always been such that it feels better to either be massaged or stay in even a small bit of motion, even if just enough to shift weight and position slightly when my joints ache. The highlight of the day was in the evening when I was sitting near the toilet and Cullen came in and rubbed my back, saying "Mamma, cough, Mamma, okay ?" and he put his head on my back and continues rubbing and then looking into my eyes and saying "Careful Mamma. Love'n Mamma." He has always been so naturally concerned and upset when other kids or people or even TV characters are hurt, upset or in danger. He's been like this since at least 6 months old. Such an empathetic and sympathetic little guy.
Today is the first day that I've felt close to being back to myself. I have been so weak and tired. I helped Barry take our box spring and mattress into the spare bedroom in the basement and I could barely catch my breath on Saturday. I was just physically drained. There was nothing in the tank and I didn't even care that Barry was doing the laundry and what not.
Tomorrow, I get back to the gym, no matter what! I hope that the last few days has not set me back too far, but even if it's put up a small road block, I am going to jump over it and treat it as a learning lesson of how not to eat when you're sick. Getting sick is not an excuse to go back to old habits and I will remind myself of this in the future. This is not a sprint, this is for my life, which I hope will last quite a while yet.
